it was a bad day ;)

and it shouldn't have been. it should have been a wonderful day but i have come to the conclusion that however much i pretend i like rainy days, i actually kind of hate them when i have places to be and places to walk to and i have to wear a real jacket and real shoes - today was dark and ugly and nothing short of mean and it needs to be bedtime already, at which point it will miraculously stop raining so i won't be able to lay in bed and listen to the sound of rain with the windows slightly open :|

have you ever been about to take a magical pill that promises to delete pain and impatience and make the day go 100% more swimmingly, a pill that you treasure and only take in dire emergencies when you need to feel like superwoman... and you accidentally drop that pill into the sink just before taking it and the water starts to dissolve it, and before you can rescue the powdery remnants of it, your magic pill is washed away forever, along with your hopes for a perfect day...? yes, that happened first thing this morning and it was just that kind of mean reds day all day long :(

today we went to Danny's christmas concert. it was very cute, but towards the end of the last song i realized i hadn't really just sat and actually wa-t-c-h-e-d and absorbed the sweetness of it all... of course, the video and pictures are precious but i get so tired of watching through a viewfinder instead of just soaking in the good :|

after that, i had promised to stay and help the kids make their PB&J reindeer sandwiches at kindy (why that pill was so desperately needed). never again, i am so not that kind of mom.... i upset a little girl (with an admittedly forgettable name) by forgetting her name over and over, broke the water fountain (sorry Mr Janitor...) and even though it's technically illegal, i cut out every struggling little boy's antlers because their friends were already watching the Charlie Brown christmas special :|

after school, we decided - in a moment of total mind-boggling stupidity - to do an errand at the mall :| not just any mall - the Santa Ana mall. oh gawd - i hate that mall. but before i could recalculate my thoughts, we were driving up and down rainy parking lot aisles of people who can't drive in the rain and fighting to find a lame spot. it was in a word, AWFUL. i hate the mall so much! inside we were so starving hungry, we tried to eat at the awful Olive Garden but it was so full of generic people waiting for generic food that we left in a tizzy to go to somewhere more unique and less populated by the united states of generica

on the way to Haveli there was a potential moment of delight, i spotted the oscar meyer weinermobile!! we squealed to an emergency stop, did a u-turn and ran over to it.... only to discover that beyond the large sausage-like exterior, the weinermobile is actually void of anything remotely interesting on the inside :| the nice ladies gave the boys whistles to blow - weiner shaped whistles?! yes :| and we took a picture in the rain. it was sooo beyond lame :|

we arrived home and found Clarice doing the death spiral in her little glass bowl :( she is still alive but hanging on by a thread, and no amount of gently tapping on the tank asking if there is anything i can do seems to be helping :(

sigh. so when the going gets tough, the tough make an extra large, extra whippy batch of cream cheese frosting to eat from a bowl in bed watching Tabatha Takes Over and hope for a better day tomorrow :)

ps it could be worse... it is pouring with rain, 8pm on a friday night and there is no sign of poor Mr UPS yet :( sure he's probably at Corner Bakery playing with the bakugan toy that he is supposed to be delivering, but for this once, i will give him a break ;)

i helped 31 kindergarteners make these sandwiches. 50% of them freaked out about having the slightest smidgen of peanut butter on their fingers :| the other 50% licked their spoon and dunked it right back into the peanut butter jar... and i wanted to scream, (like this "arggggghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!") at the jarring imbalance of it all... but i didn't want to scare the children :)